I just have this recurring feeling we will end up having sex and it's going to come back on me in a very bad manner.

It's not that I'm weak willed, but the first time around our relationship was absolutely fated and fixed to occur, regardless of circumstances. I remember I spoke with her on the phone once, never having met her at all, but yet I went home and told my father that I had just met the woman I would marry, and sure enough, there was no other possible outcome.

I'm going to give this a rest now, it's becoming more boring I'm sure than mundane life stuff. How about telling you about work. I'm realizing that one reason I like this job is because I am working with all women (mostly). What could be better than subtle flirting all day? Of course it's not any offensive or termination type stuff, just generally friendliness and smiles. A new co-worker, friday, is a very attractive 35 yr old woman that is quite nice to work with. One of us is going to go in a couple weeks so I hope it's not me. Shawna is very competant and does a good job and is a pleasure to work with, so.....

About 3 months ago I found my older brother that I've been looking for for 30 years. I found him by accident in Los Angeles then, but never met him. I then lost his info and was searching on and off since. I spoke to him by phone and we decided to meet in Las Vegas this year. Now suddenly when I went to call him the phone is disconnected, the email doesn't work, and maybe I'll never get to meet him. His ex-wife won't return my phone calls so what now? I don't have time to wait another 30 years.

If I can trace ancestors back to 1500, how can I keep losing a living person?

Hopefully I won't lose you,

Curiouoso*